Rough Ride

Well, this last week has had its ups and downs. On one hand, until about Friday at noon, I was feeling a lot better than the week before as far as pelvic pain and general discomfort goes, and I had more energy. We also had a nice, relaxing weekend where we got some stuff done.

We made a bunch of breakfast burritos and froze them for after baby.... we're hoping to do something every week from now on. This week is lasagna (hopefully).

My Woman Cards came in the mail! They are so cool, I don't even want to use them to play with. I need to think of a way to display them somehow....

Caleb had his work baby shower on Thursday. He has some super cute pictures of him at the shower that he refuses to share. I'm holding the scotcheroos he came home with, which I won't lie, I was maybe the most excited about out of all the gifts.

On the other hand, shit's gettin' real. At work on Friday I almost fell when I slipped in some water in the break room, and when I caught myself, it tweaked my pubic bone joint, making it as sore as it has ever been. I also just got into a funk where I was cranky at everything and couldn't stop thinking about all the crap we have to do still.

I did get all caught up on my thank you notes from baby showers, so that's good!

Our nephew Nathan came to visit on Saturday. We went to the pool, where he had a great time running around with Uncle Caleb. I sat in a chair mostly, because not only was my pubic bone still sore, but I had been crampy all day. I wasn't worried it was labor, because they weren't consistent and didn't get worse or more frequent, but it was mostly just annoying and uncomfortable. We also went to Orange Leaf that night and then home to watch Ghostbusters. He's an easy kid to please!

Love his face - he loved the pool! He and Caleb ran all over that place!

I think Caleb and I are both stressed over all the stuff we want to get done before Baby gets here, like house stuff and also the final things we need to do for baby prep. It probably won't all happen, but here's the list of what I can think of now: stain windows, stain deck, radon mitigation, ash tree treatment, clean the house, make frozen meals, finish decorating nursery, buy last minute necessary baby stuff we don't get as gifts, and think of everything ever to be prepared for when we lose control of everything and are at the whim of an infant.

I also haven't been doing any of the things I wanted to do to prep myself for birth.... like the Push Prep, Spinning Babies, guided imagery, etc. I don't know if adding that in would help my anxiety or stress me out more. I feel like I should maybe put a little more effort towards it.... but everything feels like a lot of effort these days.

I'll express my recent thoughts/feelings through gifs:

Our friends and family have been very generous with baby gifts, but I feel like our money has just been flying out the window lately...

Thoughts on motherhood this weekend:

Thoughts on motherhood today:

All this will pass, right? Guess it doesn't matter since this kid is coming.... soon. I know this post isn't all flowers and sunshine and excitement.... but it's where I'm at. And honestly, I don't know that it gets much better in the last month of pregnancy. Stick with me though, there will be a baby at the end of this, and she better be cute and I better love her more than life itself. I know deep down I will, but right now there's a sense of, "This better be worth it."  .....just tellin' the T, here.

Me this morning. Oh baby.