Reframed

So, I had a chat via email with my soon-to-be-sister-in-law, and she really put some things about having a kid into perspective. She was a great resource to go to, being a young, educated new mother that is not an "all I want to do is be a mom!" type of woman.

I know I'm not ready for kids, so why am I worrying about it so soon? I think my issue is that I know I need to do some more living before I have a child, and I haven't been. I've been so sensible the past 2 years, when this should really be the time that I'm exploring, traveling, being spontaneous... and doing all the things I need to do before I'm ready to have a kid.

I'm getting better - I flew to Denver to see Andrea, I'm going to see the Black Eyed Peas this March (a dream of mine), and Caleb and I are planning a fun honeymoon. I think the big kicker will be that I want to take a trip to another continent before having kids. I should really start planning now, to make sure it happens. And then just being more spontaneous in other aspects of my life... I'm a planner, but I'll work on it.

So don't worry, I'm not so anti-kids as I thought... I just need to really live for myself a while before they come, so when it's time, I'm ready to focus on them, because I've spent some good time focusing on myself.