Today I found out that another person in Creston committed suicide. It's been bugging me all night... so many people that I've loved, known, known of, been connected to somehow... in the last 10 years of my life have ended theirs.
I know that it's mostly that I'm getting older. More people closer to my age are doing it, as opposed to when you're a little kid. I'm also getting older in the sense that I'm more aware. When you're little you don't know, don't understand, or aren't told. I just found out in the last year that one death I remember from my childhood was a suicide... That makes three people in my (extended) family. Then so many more that make my heart ache for those they left behind - my friends that should never have to lose a loved one that way.
A lot of the same emotions I felt from after my uncle's death have been plaguing me tonight... I don't understand, I'm angry, I'm confused, I'm frustrated, and I mostly just hurt for the people affected by that one selfish action.
I guess the best thing to do is just go forward and be thankful, and empathize with the family that lost their loved one. There's a lot of prayers going out to them tonight.... they'll need them as they recover.
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