Starting Over

I'm afraid of getting a new job. Although this one is not my dream job by far, I do enjoy the work I do and am making some friends in the office.

I think one of the biggest things that I fear is change. It's easy to stay here since I'm really getting to know my job well, I learn and improve more everyday, and if I left I would have to start all over at the bottom. I'm also afraid that I'll hate my new job. I didn't always like this job as much as I do now, but I've never truly hated my job here. I remember while driving to work at Dairy Queen or Wal-Mart, I'd throw mini temper tantrums alone in my car on the way there, and go over every scenario that might get me out of working that day: mixing up gross concoctions to fake-puke everywhere, getting into non-lethal car accidents, saying my "brother" died..... But I haven't felt that way here yet, and I hope to never feel like that again.

I also am afraid of how I'll transition in this new, small town. I won't know anyone but Caleb, and even we will get sick of each other if we don't hang out with other people sometimes. When I transferred to Iowa State, I had a really rough first semester. No matter how great it was seeing Caleb every day, I missed Tara and Andrea and NWMSU so badly.... I cried a lot that semester. It got better, much better, and I'm really glad I transferred - I actually wish we all had gone to ISU for all 4 years! But I fear that hard transition that seems so inevitable... that's why I think I need a cat. I think a good kitty-friend will help me through. Hopefully that doesn't deter my from making real friends, though...