Being Kind to Myself

Another resolution that I've made for this year is to be more kind to myself. I am the queen of guilt and beating myself up about everything - especially when it comes to body image and weight. While doing Weight Watchers years ago  helped me become healthier, learn about portion sizes, better cooking habits, etc.... it also gave me a complex about food and my weight.

The last few months I have not been tracking what I eat and how much I exercise, and it has been so freeing. Now, I fully realized that if I did need/want to lose weight, tracking is the most effective tool for me, but for now I am healthy, not perfect, but fine. I don't need to have a concave stomach, or be at a certain weight (determined by a number pulled out of the air).... I try to eat healthy, plenty of protein/fruits/veggies/fresh stuff... and try to exercise regularly. I think that's pretty good.

One thing that has helped me a lot in the last month is putting away the scale. Well, I moved it to the spare bathroom so Caleb can still use it, but it's out of my everyday eyesight in my bathroom. Let me tell you - it has HELPED! I no longer look at it every day, dreading what number I'll see on it, or avoiding it because I don't want to know, and so on into a spiral of "I'm too heavy, I'm not working hard enough, I'm not good enough, etc. etc."

So for now, my clothes still fit, I'm active and eating good things.... so I'm good. I deserve to treat myself with kindness.