Wrench in My Plans

So if I thought things couldn't get any more hectic and confusing in my life, with leaving my job and moving to a new town, I was wrong.

I just got a big promotion. I am now the sole Account Manager of my division, as well as another B2B division in my company. By myself. Just me.

My boss was promoted, so she will still be my boss, but I will be taking over the duties she performs in her current position, as well as taking on another division. Yikes.

I'm so conflicted because I want to be really excited and proud of myself for this accomplishment. I've worked hard, my boss has all this really great stuff to say about me, and I will be in charge of two divisions with more responsibility (and hopefully more pay).

But I really feel like my success here is tainted, because I know I have plans to leave soon. So now I have to rethink my moving situation. I know that I still want to move to be with Caleb, but here's what's on my mind:

• What if he doesn't like his job? Should I stay long enough for him to decide to stay in Clear Lake?
• This is a huge opportunity for me. Although this is not my ideal workplace and industry, they've given me great experience. Should I stay to learn more and see how I like being more in charge?
• Or would staying here just be putting off another opportunity I'd have in Clear Lake or Mason City? I remember that when I filled in for my boss while she was on maternity leave, I ended up thinking, "Man, I never want her job." And now I kind of have it...
• Should I stay for the money as well? I'm assuming I'm getting a raise with my promotion, so I'll have to see just how much it is. Right now I make crap, so a raise that's really small isn't going to entice me to stay that much.
• I also feel responsibility to my division. With my boss changing jobs, I'd be leaving two divisions with no Account Manager. I'm more than willing to train someone to take my place, but I've been here for almost a year and I still don't know a lot... I don't want to leave them high and dry.
• But even with all these thoughts, I do know one thing: I'm sick of having a weekend relationship, living out of a bag on the weekends, and always feeling like I'm waiting for something, or in transition. Caleb and I were prepared to stay in Clear Lake for quite a while, and settle down. I was really looking forward to that.

Lots to think about... One thing I'm really grateful for is that Caleb is really supportive. I know that he wants me in Clear Lake with him, but he's reassured me that we'll make it work even if I decide to stay in Des Moines longer. So although the decision is mine, I appreciate how supportive he is of me.

For now, I am sticking to my plan to stay through the end of June (the end of our second quarter). I think that if I tell them in early May, that should give them a good amount of time to prepare for me leaving and to train someone new. Hopefully....